There are times I want to stretch out time when I'm enjoying life so much I don't want the goodness to end. There are times when life may not be so lovely and I just want to skip ahead to the good stuff. Sometimes I miss the old times, memories come flooding back and I want to return to that place of pure joy. Sometimes I want to go back and spend a little bit more time with that person who meant the world to me, and now they are no longer here. Sometimes I want to go back and change the way I reacted in a particular situation. Maybe if I could go back in time I wouldn't have all these regrets. Hmmm. If you really think about it, do you really want to go back in time and change things? Sometimes I really wrestle with this. There are things I wish I could say I've never done, but it's all about the growing up and learning process, right?! It's something I've been really thinking about a lot lately. Sometimes you get so caught up in the moments of your life that you do things you never thought you'd ever do. Sometimes you say things you didn't mean to say. I know I have lack of "common sense" moments--or I have an "out of body" experience...and then I spend my time regretting my past mistakes in those moments of "what the heck was a I doing?" Know what I mean?
Okay, so this post is a little random. Yes, I know it's not much info about what has transpired in the last few months of my life. But I don't feel the need to relive some of the past months of my life right now.
I just know that I've learned a whole lot. It seems as though so much has gone on in the past several months of my life, yet the time has flown by. Things can happen very quickly. Sometimes much too quickly. Maybe if I'd had more time and could slow down that time like a whole lot---then things wouldn't have been the way they were. But such is life. We all have the same amount of time in a day. 24 hours. It just doesn't always seem to be enough. But yet, we tend to waste it with mindless things and poor choices. I know I've wasted a whole lot of my time in general. Something I regret, but I cannot change the past. I can only learn from my mistakes and hope my future has fewer regrets. Life is also about living. Living is done by learning through our choices...whether good or bad. Then we must live with the consequences of our choices. It's a hard thing to grasp. Especially in my very finite mind. I am so small. I tend to only think about my own life and what is going on in my world around me which is oh so small and closed to a lot of the outside world. You can take this however you like...and maybe it somehow applies to you too. But this is just one of the many things that is going on in my head right now.
Time. You get out of it what you put into it. You lose it. You abuse it. You use it up. 24 hours, everyday. What are you doing with your time?
I know one thing--it's way to precious to waste. So start living. BUT live purposefully. It's not easy, but you'll feel better and a whole lot more fulfilled if you start really using your time so that it is not only beneficial to you, but to others as well. We were not created to live for ourselves, but for the One who created us. And He knows the number of our days, and how we live those days. So make it good. Make it worthy of the One who is breathing life into your lungs everyday.
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