Sunday, April 28, 2013

your words.

2Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving. 3At the same time, pray also for us, that God may open to us a door for the word, to declare the mystery of Christ, on account of which I am in prison— 4that I may make it clear, which is how I ought to speak. 5Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time. 6Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person. Colossians 4:2-6

I've been at my aunt's church the last two Sundays. This passage was what the pastor preached on today. I've been constantly reminded of the power of my words lately and how they can affect others, but also how they can come back and haunt me. Even if what I said was not meant for malice or to inflict pain, they can be taken the wrong way and twisted into something else. My prayer today was for God to help my words be few. Calculated. Encouraging. Challenging. Worthy of other's ears. Pleasing to God. I can be too quick to speak and too quick to cast judgement. I want my words to be gracious and ones that are used for telling others about what God has done in my life and what He has done, can do, and will do for them if they ask. 

Saturday, April 27, 2013

random post.

This post is completely random....but I just needed to express some of my irritations. I can become very easily irritated. It's not one of my attractive qualities because I become irritated and impatient with people very easily. I'm working on it, but it's hard. Old habits die hard. First of all, I can't stand being treated like a child. Especially when it's by someone a good bit younger than me. I have to hold myself from saying something very un-Christlike. Second, I can't stand being told what to do---going along with the first thing. Thirdly, and probably the MOST irritating is when someone twists my words and lies to other people about me. More than being really makes me mad. The anger builds up and I want to scream and punch something (or in this case...someone). It's especially irritating when these lies are being told to make me look like I'm a hateful person. When in fact, I'm not. I don't intentionally act in malicious ways towards others.

I'm trying my best to be the person and woman that God has made me to be, but this life is very difficult and situations come up that test our character. I know I'm not perfect...and will never be. I fail my Savior everyday. I don't always look like Jesus. But I'm trying very hard to have an attitude more like His and be the person described in Titus 2:7-8:

Show yourself in all respects to be a model of good works, and in your teaching show integrity, dignity, and sound speech that cannot be condemned, so that an opponent may be put to shame, having nothing evil to say about us.

I know this was a random post, but I want to be honest in my posts. No need to sugar coat. The truth is always better than lies or putting on a show or wearing a mask.